You never know how unhappy you are until you are alone. left to think about every little thing that you've done. i sit here upset because i have so much good things infront of me but i choose to push them away. i have both my parents. my dad has been in my life since day one. im so thankful for him. i dont have to go to bed at night wondering who my father is because of him i have a bed to sleep on and a roof over my head. he also pays for my school and doesnt complain about it. i never show him or tell him that much but i love him to death. he is seriously the best father anybody could ever ask for. My mom and i have are splats here and there but seriously, i need her. im sitting her upset because how hateful i am towards her. it upsets me that i can be so ugly to somebody i love. im thankful that i have her. i have so many of her traits its crazy. i wouldnt want to be or look like anybody else. who cares if my nose isnt straight, its like my moms so its perfect. isaiah, is my world. i fight with him constantly and it breaks my heart. he used to be my best friend..he still is. i might now show it but i love him more than anything in this world, instead of hating him i should bee enjoying him and loving him. (i shouldnt be typing this while im at work, because im seconds away from balling) but really. isaiah has a huge heart but sometimes he pretends to not have one and thats what makes me so angry. i pray for him, i hope he because something good makes a good life out of him self. he has so much potential. you know how they say there isnt such thing as a perfect child/ person? well... there is. my sister nicole. she is seriously one of the beautiful-est girls ever, she is smart, with a degree (going for her masters) married, and pregnant. honestly, God couldnt of given me a better role model. i love her so much too. i love when she acts goofy because that is rare of her but she is hilarious. i cannot wait till she has my niece. my sister is gonna be such a good mom. mark, her husband is perfect like her. i dont consider him my "brother n law" because he is literally like my brother, hes is awesome. i think hes probably one of the smartest dudes you'll ever meet. i thank god for sending him to my sister. next, is opie i think im alot closer to him than i am my other siblings.. (im not that close to him) if you can tell im not close to my siblings but i do havea good relationship with them. opie is one of the hardest workers i know. (he gets it from my dad) he is such a good dad and a great boyfriend. i love opie, and i want him to achive everything because he deserves it. his daughter is my rock. i can honestly go on and on about her. she is so perfect..jessica is opies girlfriend and i feel that she is half the reason opie is the way he is, i love her. i usually didnt like opiees girlfriends but i never had or will have problem with her. as i get to the end of this blog i am happy, and greatful. God gave me some of the best people i could ever ask for.